I feel like I don’t deserve to be loved or even cared about. I don’t deserve to feel happiness. I have hurt too many people by my existence. I am a mistake. It’s all I am and all see. No one notices my tears, sadness, or my pain. They only see my mistakes. I feel like a useless waste of space. I’m not needed anymore by the ones who needed me the most. No one needs me to help out anymore. No one calls me to do anything. I am a failure. I am worthless. I don’t understand how I got this way. Something has to be wrong with me. I’m just wandering around this world, doing nothing with my life, waiting for the inevitable. I mean why would anyone want to love a self medicated, emotionally unstable, self destructive, insignificant person like myself. But then again those who are hardest to love need it the most. I want to feel loved, but not out of pity. I just don’t deserve it…any of it.